Wednesday, June 5, 2013

Trust is Hard

The past few months have been good. Lots of changes and transitions as we welcomed two new team members and said goodbye to another. We also had several visitors come and stay with us which is always fun! We've been getting more involved with our church Viața Noua which has been great for us and hopefully a blessing for them. It's been nice for me personally to be establishing deeper relationships with the women there and Matt and the guys got to go on a men's hike with the men from church. There is a great need there for people to serve so there have been lots of opportunities for us to step in and get really connected. It's been really great!

In some other, more personal news, I have not been doing so well. I've been feeling out of sorts for about a month. I've been feeling very fatigued and tired as well as getting dizzy when I've been doing pretty normal tasks. I thought maybe it was allergies...we thought perhaps I was pregnant...then about a week ago I started having pain in my lower abdomen and after 3 days it kept getting worst. So we decided to go to the hospital because I knew something wasn't right. After an exam and an ultrasound the doctor told me I have a cyst on my left ovary ( it's still small, around 2cm I think) and I have some sort of inflammaion in my fallopian tubes on the left side which is causing me pain. So he gave me some antibiotics and an anti inflammatory for the inand I had to get blood work done to see if the cyst is cancerous and if the inflammation is from a bacterial infection. He said that the cyst isn't bad, but it's not good either and that he may put me on a birth control pill (which is supposed to help shrink the cyst). I don't really want to go on a hormonal birth control pill so I will have to see if there are any other options. And as for the infection in my fallopian tubes...well that's not so good either...

(Okay so I started writing the top portion a week ago but didnt finish and now have some new information.) After some blood work the dr said that I do not have a bacterial infection in my Fallopian tubes but that the inflammation was probably caused by the cold...which seems odd to me but my Romanian friends say this is a very common thing here in Romania. I've been off the antibiotics and the anti inflammatory for 4 days now and still feel terrible. I'm still having pain in my lower abdomen (mostly on the right side where ther is inflammation) and i feel absolutly exhausted all the time still so today I'm going to go to another dr to get a second opinion. The dr was reccommended by a friend from church and she really likes her dr so hopefully I can get some answers and figure out what the deal is.

I'm really struggling with all of this since Matt and I would really like to have more children one day. Everything I can find online about inflammation of Fallopian tubes says that it's bacterial and cause infertility if not treated promptly...and since I've been feeling bad for a month now and have had pain for about 2 weeks...I'm getting a little nervous. Plus it's just hard because medicine and drs in Romania are very different than what I am accustomed to and it's hard to be having these issues and be so far from home and the familiar. However I will say that it is causing me to trust in The Lord more than I've had to for a while. I know that He is with me in this and I daily sense Him calming my fears...but it's still hard. Please for us as its been hard for Matt also. It's hard for him to see me feel so awful and feel so out of control about it all. Not too mention he's been cooking meals, doing laundry, and watching Kylie on top of all his other responsibilities! He is truly amazing and I'm so thankful for him! Please pray for healing and wisdom and good doctors etc and for us to continue to rely on The Lord for strength trusting that he works all things for the good of those who love Him!