The past week has been a little rough for me honestly. I'm beginning to realize just how much I do not like change. I suppose this is a good thing to know especially since I had no idea prior to moving here. However, regardless of how I feel, the Lord is so faithful and that is a fact! Time and time again I see how He hears me and answers my prayers. I had been feeling overwhelmed with the move. It's hard when everything around you is completely unfamiliar. Even going on a date with my husband was a little stressful simply because I had no idea what to order on the menu at the restaurant we went to because it was all in Romanian. It ended up being great and thankfully our waiter spoke English. He recommended the "meat pancake" and it was delicious. It was kind of like a lasagna burrito with sour cream type stuff on top. My stomach didn't quite agree with my taste buds but I suppose adjusting to the food just comes with the territory.
I've found myself really trying not to be angry at the Lord. He continues to encourage me and remind me that He does actually know what's best for me. He has been reminding me of how initially, I didn't think that Matt was His best for me either. Initially when Matt and I became friends I had absolutely no romantic interest in him at all...and then one day I looked at Matt and he looked different. Not because He had changed at all, but because God had changed my heart. Now having been married for almost 3 years I know without a shadow of a doubt Matt IS God's absolute best for me. The Lord is showing me that Romania is sort of the same. Initially I may have no interest in being here but one day I will look around and suddenly it will all look different and not because anything around me has changed, but simply because my heart has been changed. Until that day He remains faithful to remind me constantly of His presence while assuring me that He is with me and my family and this team.
On Saturday, one of the people we met through Pathway to Joy and his wife, took us to their grandpa's farm out in a tiny village in the countryside of Romania. It was absolutely beautiful! The best part was it was something familiar, which I desperately needed. It reminded me of the summers I spent in Tennessee with my best friend's family who lived on a farm. The smell of the hay, mixed with fresh cut grass, the clean crisp air and just the simplicity of life on the farm. It was a breath of fresh air and a reminder that my Father in Heaven hears me and is ready to help me in any way I might need Him to.
Isaiah 41:10: "Fear not, for I am with you; Be not dismayed, for I am your God. I WILL STRENGTHEN YOU. Yes I WILL HELP YOU, I will uphold you with my righteous right hand."
There is no feeling quite like the feeling you get from being strengthened by the Lord. It's almost indescribable. One minute you feel as though you can't go on any longer because it's just too hard...and the next minute you feel as though nothing could stop you. It's one of the many reasons that I know my God is real. That Jesus is real. That He is alive and active and that He cares about me and how I feel. It's what enables me to press on and press in...to do things I could never do on my own...(like move to Romania with my husband and a baby.) I truly can do ALL things through Christ who strengthens me. So although it's hard and it's uncomfortable most of the time, He enables me to thrive. To not only move forward, but to run forward in the goodness that He has for me, my family and my team. He really only does good and wondrous things and even if it doesn't necessarily feel "good" at the time, I know that He is good and that's good enough for me!
(On a side note we start our language classes tonight. We will be meeting with our teacher for an hour Mon-Thurs. Please pray for supernatural understanding because this is pretty much what will allow us to build relationships with people. Communication is key!)
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